Thursday, January 27, 2005
++BorEd & TiReD++haven been blogging... these days only got 2 words... Bored & Tired...sorry...
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 10:01:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there
What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word
"Sorry seems to be the hardest word" - Elton john
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 9:54:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
Saturday, January 22, 2005
weeee... after 2 days of open house, its been fun but tiring... accutally been a super tiring week... tml is the last day of open house, hope everything goes well... and this open house poor tree... :X haha... lots of jokes going around... haha... then today holiday, hmmm... accutally dunno wad holiday :P, but nvm... anyway, today only stayed at home do BA, ahhh... my phone modelling still looks super funny... dieee.... arghhhh... >_< tml mama's birthday and openhouse, will be fun tomorrow!haha... then, looking forward to next week holiday... really need a break... haiz... thats all for now...
mind knows the truth, but heart is retarted..., ...
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 1:50:00 AM
-ThE EnD-
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
weeee... tomorrow is NP open house, haha... but this means more work and less play time for me, haiz... anyway, its on wed, thursday and saterday, friday public holiday, i need sleep :P haha... well, today's SA was cool! good good, shouldnt be a problem, then went with my SA group to orchard, walk walk, eat eat and had a good chat, haha... cant life be this simple?
anyway... now feeling really berry tired, lots of stuffs not done yet but i just have no strength left liao... haiz... and... slowly lah... 1% now only... thats good enough for me liao...
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 10:06:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
Sunday, January 16, 2005
these days really feels weird, got lots of stuffs to do but really dun feel like doing them, there is only 1 thing i really wanna do but maybe i wun have the chance again? haha... dunno lah, but today again didnt do much, tomorrow NWC is gonna kill me and BA left 1 more week then due liao, but atleast went out with my parents and brother, went shopping, long time didnt have a outing like these liao, so its been fun, hehe... good food too, okok, atleast now abit better, still dunno why did this week end like this? haiz... hope next week could be better... for now... time to sleep...
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 10:57:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and
I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
Everything I know
and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls,
when it's all said and done
it get hard but it won't take away my love
I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
"Here Without You" - 3 Doors Down
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 10:46:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
Saturday, January 15, 2005
well... today was boring... whole day in skool but didnt acomplish much... haiz... got BA modelling and java game background to develop by tml... i think tml really gotta chiong liao... and liverpool lost... been a sad weekend... dunno Y, maybe the stress? dun think so... maybe cose i am feeling something thats i dun wanna feel ever again, made a mistake i guess... gotta learn and never to do it again, haiz... maybe this is part of growing up? okay, this is hard but i gonna get over it, end up in the world, most important is protect yourself... but... i really dunno... messy i guess... i also dunno wad i typing liao, gonna go sleep liao... zzz... ahh...first post without a haha, "haha" too fake i guess....
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 11:02:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
Friday, January 14, 2005
weee... today is cool... PM start assignment liao, this means gotta crack my brain and type type type again liao, then today went to skool empty hand, well only got 3 hours of PM and was there singing phantom of the opera, weeee :P then go egarage, today i told them that i gotta leave, today mustnt let egarage fall again, we put the computer at a new place, nearer the lift there, well then i go watch movie with my doggie liao :P hehe... chucky is berry berry nice, kinda like comedy, with all the bloody stuffs, nice! then ate cheesecake, mummy! good news, today egarage recruited 100+ year 1's, about 50+ year 2's okie, this is definity good good good results, weeeee... i didnt do much though, credits go to everyone there, haha... but atleast relieved, but today skip training :P sorry, really lots of stuffs to do and didnt do any skool work, hmmm... just treat today as a day off :P hehe... time to go sleep liao, had fun today, missing my doggie liao :X
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 1:53:00 AM
-ThE EnD-
Thursday, January 13, 2005
woooh lah! 1 word to descript this few days... TIRED... :X haha... been doing it quite willingly but today was ehhh... not that all rewarding... things not going to plan... haiz... maybe due to the bad omen lah and my studies are lacking behind ppl liao... haha... but manage to find some stuffs or BA, hope i can do it over the weekend... looking forward to holidays :P and the next part is in white colour font, :P all my whines, so please if you dun wan to read, close this browser now, haha... anyway, gotta sleep, tired...
bad bad bad, that all i can say, i was really busy doing things, almost everything lah, haiz... ever seen a event done everything by the president and vice-president? and cant even get ppl to come help, haiz... maybe they were rite? no ppl wanna sign up eGarage 1 lah, wads the use?
but really glad for some who trusted in me, helping and staying till late, thanks! really thanks! thanks for helping out at the LAN gaming event too... maybe should have known this would happen, the sign board we put out today just collapse, maybe this a omen egarage has fallen... haiz... sorry to all those whu helped me, dunno why that they appoint me ah? so many talented and clever ppl in there, to be lead by a fool? haha... sorry, really have low-confidence now... maybe they should have known rite? i am the only 1985 year 1, haha... look at them whu so many top student, i really lead u all down...
sorry... haiz... i am not good technically, the plan was for me to do all the planning and stuffs, but like wad they say, i am not doing anything, all the lecturers doing wad eGarage is up too, cant do anything, i really dunno wad to do liao... sorry... maybe i am just not that good enough lah... felt like a joker today, maybe i should just concentrated on my skool work... haiz... looking at my 2 other exco on the way home, haiz... maybe just wasted their time lah... they did so much, haiz... wasted my time too...
today reliease that maybe i been spenting my time on the wrong stuffs, neglated alots of things that are important, i really dunno, i only know i miss my dog :X maybe just that i shouldnt try to do everything... wanna do well in everything... studies, sports, club, music, everything... but i just cant... that my life i thing.... gotta go sleep... been sleeping less than 4 hours the past 2 days, felt like dying today, still go to skool at 8, prepare all the stuffs but wasted at the end, i dun wanna knoe how tomorrow will be i most like wun be there, sorry... guys, i let u all down... sorry... i cant even protect my own club people today, thats.....
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 1:13:00 AM
-ThE EnD-
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
tired... 2am liao, just finish print out my group SA project... i think all of them should be sleeping liao, then tomorrow still gotta rush down to submit before 8,30... haiz... i wanna sleep :X today skool, ehhh... accutally today no skool 1, but then end up still gotta go to skool early, 1pm, meet a secondary skool classmate in bus so atleast got company, hehe... then in skool was doing the eGarage Recruitment drive poster for this wed event, haiz... still got powerpoint slides to do, ahhh... then did some SA, then meeting of wireless jam, our mentor wants a menu bar and the back ground of the handphone game to be created by next monday... hey... where got time man? haiz... then was inside egarage doing SA, stay behind, today is the first day of the Warcraft 3 competition so incase anything i am there... till 9... reach home do SA till now... tml gotta chiong CSP, BA and egarage powerpoint slides...
Yesh... Cut my hair liao, even though is looks the same, its shorter! haha... :P ahhh... yesterday went to church, hmmm... haven been going since returning from india, so is nice to go back there and after that on the way home, went to 7-11 saw a really wonderful thing! cadbery white chocolate balls with almond nut! weeeee... had a chocolate feast! :P
ahhh... realise i haven been reading people blogs lately but i always wish that lots of people would read my blog, hope there is no karma :P and i will try to read all my friends blog if i have the time k? :P and i need a break....
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 2:09:00 AM
-ThE EnD-
When I'm feeling small When it's cold outside I don't know who I should believe And when I needed someone special just by my side Who was there? When I'm feeling old When it's rain outside I don't know who is holding me And when I need a little kind and tender moment Who's with me? I believe someday I will love Someone who's by my side Oh someday My special one will come alone I'll pray everyday When I'm lost inside When I'm down and out I don't know who I should recall And when I needed someone precious just be my side No one there no one was there I believe someday I will love Someone who's by my side Oh someday My special one will come alone I'll pray everyday Someday I will love Oh someday oh someday I keep on praying everyday"I believe" - Yamaguchi Yuko
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 1:58:00 AM
-ThE EnD-
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Ahhhh... after a long day... sleeepy... today go skool do SA, but still haven finish, still got some parts i need to go edit them... haiz... but watched 'meet the fockers' woooh! berry berry nice! berry fun movie! just had a great luff, hahaha... hmmm... ahhh... really berry tired, got SA, BA, CSP, PM, drawing and egarage things to do, but... i gonna choose sleep :P the rest after i go church tomorrow, which is around evening then do, haha... dun care liao, good nite everyone! :P and everyone is bugging me whu is my doggy... haha... :X
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 1:44:00 AM
-ThE EnD-
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Ahh... in skool library now, doing SA! haha... really dunno wad to do liao, heEx... yesterday got back lappy liao, its still in its current state, dun think will be repairing liao, $1280 repair cost, sorry lah, maybe need to put it to sleep liao, :X haha... either borrowing lappy or use until cannot use loh, then IS was fun, still dunno wad PQS is about... haha... hmm... thats all for now, gotta go back to SA!
Humans are weird... what can i say? there are lots of fake people around, buzzing around, haha... but i always been open, :P so i am still me...
ehh... my poor doggie is sick leh, why always sick one? so poor thing... must take care hor! sorry, cant be with you as much as i wan... saddd... wait i free then play fetch with you again... haha... miss my doggie alot :X heEx~
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 2:26:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
Friday, January 07, 2005
heEx... the previous post been abit over whinieee... :P okok, acutally life still been pretty good, enjoying school, loves all my family and friends, and never really gotta stress myself, "no white hair before" wahahaha... well school is as usual interesting and fun but always too many happy and exciting things that i really cant remenber all :P but still surviving and fencing has always been fun and really learning more and more stuffs liao, cant wait to go fence with them... haha, this is getting boring liao, well anyway, hope that the next time i blog, i will blog with my lappy again, and i really miss days and nites that i'm with my doggie :P heEx~
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 1:58:00 AM
-ThE EnD-
Yesh, finally for once i accessed the internet from home, haiz... can only do it when my papa is not using, whole family sleeping liao, haiz... total repair cost will be $1280, keyboard spoil and dunno wad else spoil, haiz... this is bad... i rejected the repair quotation but still yet to tell my papa, mama... if no repair then means i need a new lappy and... i haven buy my fencing gear yet, haiz... that should be around $500+, and now, thats alot alot of money... haiz... really miss my lappy, -_- sorry... *sobs* didnt take good care of you, sorry lappy, *sobs* haiz... the toopid egarage club structure i still really dunno how and haven do, i dun like the current sitution but all the lectures are either doing nothing or dun wanna change, haiz... well, if you all want, i am always happy to be doing nothing, hehe... oops! haha... today been whining alot, hmm... stress lah, next week, got gaming competition, recuitment drive, itectone robocode thingy, next next week, AGM, open house, and then following is chalet... really fully booked liao, haiz.... then haven include all the assigment that are coming on due, in-class assigment and practical test, bad bad bad... haiz... okok, this is really bad....
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 1:50:00 AM
-ThE EnD-
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Woooh! in BA class now, i really miss my lappy now, at home, no more internet, ahhh... *cry cry* hEex~ but had fun last nite :X hmm... so can only blog in skool liao, haiz... today morning rain damn bloody heavy :X haha... okok, when i can access net then i will blog again, bye...
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 9:13:00 AM
-ThE EnD-
Sunday, January 02, 2005
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2005!
Weeee... its a new year! spend the first weekend at home with my family after enjoying a really fun last day of 2004, count down with kungfu hustle, haha..., cant remenber when the last time i spend 2 days at home without going out with my friends, been heading out since india trip, so really enjoyed the accompany of my family, ^_^ and of cose good food too and cose finally mama gave me a payrise... heEx~ finish most of my next week work liao, all is good for me except that, my poor lappy is offically down, keyboard spoil liao, even though i am still using it now, but really gotta go... haiz... tomorrow bring it to hospital... and today someone i miss berry much called me! haha... my good india travelling buddy lah, haha... well that the first 2 day of 2005, hehe... and delicate this song to everyone, accutally put it once liao, but still this song is what i thought of 2004, so enjoy, "best i ever had - Vertical horizon" and finally...
condolences to all tsunami victims.
Wishlist 2005!
-Stay happy everyday ^_^
-Always being there for all my family and friends
-Study hard and learn more IT stuffs
-Make egarage a better place
-Work hard on my guitar, piano, singing as well as reorganize my band
-Excerise more, and Fencing!
-Get all the stuffs i wan? yesh yesh please...
-Learn to have more confidence in myself? accutally i can...
-Learn to be more caring? hehe...
-Let everyonw knoe that i love them always
-and, that i love my doggy most ^_^
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 11:50:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
Recap of 2004....
Friends
I made many many new friends in these past year! hehe... till now i can still remenber on chinese new year holiday period, got 3 different groups of friends came to my house in 3 different days! really really miss hanging out with all my friends, heEx~ Thank you everyone ^_^ for always beening there whenever i need you guys, sorry if i had let you down in anyways, looking back now... memories good or bad, i will always treasure... hope to hear from all my friends again, and hope to know everyone better! yesh...!
School
Weeee... school life has been all fun fun fun for me, haha... really enjoyed skool this sem, loves all my schoolmates so much, been so rewarding for me in skool, hope this new year would be even better! hope to learn more IT stuffs too, even though i can manage my school work but compare to my friends, i still lack lots of IT stuffs, i wanna do more, JAVA, .NET, PHP, SQL, FLASH, more and more! but thennnn... :P i dun really like IT except using my computer for entertainment... heEx~
Music
Ahhh... this part of my life, i yearn so much but been kinda slacking, haiz... here really gotta to seriously buck up, my guitar skills is still poor, cant play piano, cant sing... okie! gotta chiong for all that, and hope i could form a new band, even though its been fun for me in the old band, but... it just didnt work out, i cant cheat myself... sorry, let all of you guys down...
Relationships
Hmmm... i got approached once! haha... thats like for once in my whole life, haha... but overall this part of me also always been lacking, well, i am still young :P and now... shh... just got ^_^
Love my doggy so much! heEx~
Personality
Changed i guess, hmmm... can say this year gave me lots and lots of eye-opener, i been more out-going, been more daring to do stuffs, maybe people would changed... but sometimes i really still lack that confidence, i really dunno am i that good or not? maybe is my ability? maybe is just confidence? but still i'hv changed to put myself first, dun care about others :P but i still wun hurt anyone... heEx~ well, just that i have grow abit since 2003... ^_^
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 10:44:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
Well its not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phoney
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
Its not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
And it make take some time to patch me up inside
But I can't take it so
I runaway and hide
And I may find in time that you were always right
You're always right
So you've sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted
Its not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
Best I ever had
Best I ever....
"Best I Ever Had - Vertical Horizon"
Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 10:10:00 PM
-ThE EnD-
