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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

++study life++

Hello... *yawns*

long time no see...

Here taking abreak from all the studying, stressed stuffs, textbook, notes, pass year paper, yadada, bodada, all the craps, haha, accidently took a short nap too, tired... beening thinking about poly life, tomorrow in about 18hours time, my last exams paper in poly will end, means holiday! and maybe no more exams paper for the rest of my poly life(6more months) or my whole life? haha... suddenly feel so strange...the last exams war, yesterday SS paper i think i did well, for all that studying but today... i think i loss the battle... the battle of WSAS... should have studied more... should have understand more... should have manage the paper better... should have go for class... well..., been skipping class, always to do other projects and stuffs... always i there doing, always i skip class too chiong... ppl go class, i always chionging project... hey, ss paper on monday i think is good consider i didnt go class for 3+ weeks liao... so is my fault? some project did well, some sux, for reasons hell knows(the lecturers can burn in hell to redeem his soul), i just wanna do well... i wanna do well enough that eveyone will recongize me... this poly life is so competitive, this sick singapore education, i wanna do well not because i wanna beat everyone, just that i want everyone to say that i am good... that why i wanna be the gold metallist, i just want everyone to recongize my ability... even the lecturers that burning in hell to shout that "hey, god damn it, ben is good"... hey, looking at all the past metallist, i think i can be the most handsome and cute 1 in recent years, rite? :P

life is so strange... my friend once told me... "ben u are good, but just that everyone dunno u are good" so then wads the use of being good but everyone dunno u are good... thats lame man, i wonder if anyone will remenber "benjamin lim wen bin" the name tomorrow? who cares anyway... the exams wars will end tomorrow's IC fight... will my name lives forever? anyway i just want it too end, so i can be finally free to do wad i like too do, spend time with my dear dear, waste my life playing computer games, go out enjoy myself, or simply just sit and wait for myself too rot, isnt this great... 1 more day... i am really tired this sem... i really did alot of shits, shits ppl dun wan to do, i do, shits i do that i didnt really been credited, shits i do but it always fills with problems that is cause by me... my friend recently also snapped at me for being "stubbon lah", come to think of it, really leh, my stubboness cause me all this shits, i am just a stubbon bastard... i thought is just that i got it right, just press on with confident, end up... is just pure stubboness... cant help that my idol is 'Zhuge liang'... haha... he is infallible, i am inflatable... i am just tired... tired of always having to please everyone... tired of always being my fault, seriously... ok lah, its my fault...

gotta study leh, 6.45pm liao...
u wasted your life reading this crap...

Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 6:10:00 PM

-ThE EnD-

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream

"Untited" - Simple Plan

Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 5:58:00 PM

-ThE EnD-

++nEw Tee-ShIrts++

Weee...

Got 2 new tee-shirts!

1 brown, 1 dark green, both looks really cool!!

thanks my dear dear, muacks!

Hehehe...

++WaNts++

-More tee-shirts! (must dark colour)

-Short sleeve shirts! (any but black)

-Levi's jeans! (only got 2, need more right?)

-Ankle Socks (black)

-Shoes (Converse? Nike? Adidas?)

Ben Lim WhIsPeReD OuT @ 5:39:00 PM

-ThE EnD-